If you’ve watched Oshi No Ko anime or read the manga, then you may already be familiar with what kind of person Kana Arima is.

Sure, she’s confident with her acting skill. And she knows about the dos and don’ts when it comes to how to behave when you’re in the entertainment industry.

But her personality is on another level.

She has a sharp tongue and doesn’t pay much respect to people who are older than her.

That seems to be the case with how she treated Mem-Cho. She doesn’t call her senpai despite Mem-Cho being older than her.

Thankfully Mem-Cho doesn’t take it to heart since seniority isn’t much of a big deal to her.

But in a nutshell, you can say that Kana Arima is the sort of character who doesn’t have a nice personality.

What makes me relatable to Kana Arima isn’t so much to do with me and her having a similar personality per se.

Rather, it’s more to do with this one fated episode.

The fated episode that I can relate to what Kana Arima is experiencing

Remember the scene where Ruby told Kana about the doctor who promised to support her when she became an idol?

While Kana may not say it, you can tell how envious she is of Ruby considering that she didn’t have anyone supporting her throughout her career.

And it’s even more so when she starts her singing career after her child actor days are over.

Sad to say, the only song that people remember about her was Bell Pepper Exercise which was a kid’s song.

No one knew about the other songs that she released after that since none of them were a big hit.

It seems like her popularity as a child actor isn’t enough to propel her to stardom and garner a large interest for her.

As a result, her talent agency lost faith in her.

Nobody is willing to support her anymore when the only thing that she could bring to the table was a failure to the agency, nothing else.

I experience the same thing too

While I now receive support from many amazing authors in the author community, I wasn’t so lucky during my early ventures, though.

In case you’re wondering, I didn’t start as an author right away after I graduated from college.

My first business was an online fashion retail.

To be honest, I have no idea why I chose fashion since I wasn’t into fashion that much.

But one thing I know for sure was I didn’t start a business because it was always my dream to have one.

Rather, I started a business because I couldn’t find a job.

Well, what do you expect when you graduated during the Global Financial Crisis?

It was hard to get a job back then, even for a sales position.

If you think that my parents were eager to support me when I decided to start my own business, you’ll be hard-pressed to find out that they didn’t.

They weren’t thrilled to see me starting a business.

With no one in my immediate circle supporting me, the business ended up a failure.

The good news is I didn’t let the failure and lack of support from people around me deter me to keep going.

This is another thing that I can relate to Kana who refused to leave the entertainment industry despite the setback she was facing.

She remains in the industry as a freelancer until Aqua asked her to join B-Komachi with his sister later on.

There’s a light at the end of the tunnel

Even after joining B-Komachi, she refused to become the center of the group despite being the best at singing among them.

From her view, it was pointless for someone like her to be the center of the group when she has no fans at all.

She’s nothing like Mem-Cho who has a dedicated fanbase.

And she certainly doesn’t have the same star power and personality as Ruby. She even said that someone like Ruby will become popular someday because of how passionate she is about being an idol.

During their first live performance, she doesn’t seem surprised at all when she sees the majority of them are here to see Mem-Cho and Ruby.

It’s not that hard for her to know when the majority of the glow sticks are mainly Mem-Cho’s and Ruby’s.

Her glow stick is nowhere to be seen among the crowd. Despite that, she’s still hoping that someone will hold and wave her glow stick even if it’s only one person.

As you can guess, there is one person who holds her glow stick.

And that person is none other than Aqua.

Of course, Aqua is holding the other members’ glow sticks as well, not just hers. But even with that, it’s enough for her to know that there is someone out there who is supporting her.

That’s already good enough for someone like her who never has anyone supporting and cheering for her all her life.

You will eventually get there

Elise McDowell from House of Brazen said that before anyone comes into your life to support you, you must be willing to go through the journey alone.

Sure, it sucks when it feels like you have no one that you can turn to when you need support the most.

But as long as you persevere, you will eventually meet people who will become your biggest cheerleader.

And you don’t need a lot of them to make you feel supported too.

Even having one person who believes in you is enough to get you through anything.

So, don’t give up just yet if you feel like no one is there for you.

Keep going and you’ll eventually find the people who will support you, just like how I found a community of authors to support my writing endeavor.

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